Title: LOVE IS FAKE, YOU KNOW
Genre: YA Contemporary LGBTQ
Word count: 88,000 words
Logline: Torn between seeking the familiarity of harmful relationships and rising above a homophobic hometown in Ohio, bisexual teen Morgan creates new definitions of morality to avoid settling for a life riddled with depression and angst.
6-24-02 Monday 5:03AM
I have a weird secret ambition that this journal will be discovered and I’ll end up like Anne Frank or something. Except nothing I write flows quite like Anne’s stuff did. And with any luck I won’t be dying any time soon.
What pushed me over the edge toward starting this journal tonight was a fight with Jacob. We were having a pretty normal conversation about how we can’t wait for band camp when out of nowhere he asked where I wanted to sneak off to when we got there. I sputtered until the only words I could think of came out: “To do what?”
“C’mon Morgan, you know what I wanna do.”
I told him I wasn’t ready to “do stuff.” Where did his idea even come from? I have no idea where his idea even came from. I mean, we’ve only been going out for 55 days and we’ve only met twice! He hasn’t even kissed me yet.
His response came out as a hiss through the earpiece: “Don’t act like you’re not easier than that.”
When I reminded him that I’m just not like that, he realized his mistake. He apologized a million times and said he was sooooo sorry and he absolutely does not think of me as “easy.” It’s not that I don't believe him…I really do trust him. It was just a misunderstanding, right?
And honestly, I’m still not sure what he wants to do at band camp.